Week 12 out of 12

It is the last week of my online classes for this semester, and once again I'm amazed at how much can change in a few short months. At the beginning of this semester, I was feeling well and I was very excited for classes to start. Now, at the end of the semester, unfortunately I've hit another rough patch in my ordeal with cancer and I'm looking forward to the break from classes. At least I'm on a very slow upswing, finally, since taking the new chemo. My blood counts are finally returning and I haven't had to get a transfusion for a whole week. (Funny how that becomes normal...) I still have next to no energy, but with the end of the semester, I'm looking forward to lots of time to rest. Where do I go from here? Good question. Ask me another. Maybe I'll know the answer to that one. I certainly don't know the answer to this question. I'll just have to wait and see. I might continue with this chemo at a much smaller dose, or I might start an entirely different one. Or, maybe, I might take a break from chemo for a while. We'll see what happens when we get there. For now, we're here, and I have to deal with things that are here.
Which includes finishing my classes and making sure I get all my work in. This is easier said than done. With my lack of energy and focus, not to mention all those times I was in the hospital, under a medicine-induced haze, or just plain sick, I fell behind in my classes. Now I am completely caught up in 2 classes, one and a half assignments away from being completely caught up in my 3rd class, but pretty far behind in my last one. It required a lot of writing, and I just didn't have the energy to keep up. I did all the reading, but the writing was more than my foggy mind could handle. So, now I'm working as hard as I can to finish everything that I can. At the beginning of the semester, I was hoping for all A's, and I started out meeting that goal. But now I'm just hoping I pass that last class. This is something that cancer has taught me: Work hard, but you don't have to aim for perfection. You should only aim for the best that you can do.
Here is my best work. Everything I have in this blog represents me doing my absolute best. Even after this blogging class is over, I'll continue this blog and continue doing my best.