My brain swims.
I watch it go, from somewhere close, but far, far away.
My arms are limp.
My head is weighted down.
How can I be loose and so, so heavy?
How can I be on the other side of the room when I can't move from the couch?
I can't trust my eyes.
I know I have two brothers, but do I have two Moms, or two Dads? Or two lives?
Why is everything double?
Which one is real?
If I reach out my hand...
Use what little strength I have left to stretch my arm...
Can I grab the truth?
Or would it not be worth the effort?